25 days to doomsday

think i am gonna die again~
death by exams again...

i dun really feel stress or anything
total numbness

forcing myself not to sit n stone
hmmm

i am involved in sports camp 12
SUXII or sux 2
as LOGISTIC HEAD..
big big arrow~
mayb i am jus too bored lah...
though i said i dun like their working style...
jus join for fun lor

anyway....
i realised something...
i am losing faith in everything...
i dun hope.. dun wish... dun pray...
only believe in hard work

money dun drop frm sky
frds can fall apart over little things
frds can drift apart n become total strangers
strangers are more than willing to use u as a steppin stone
lovers can break after a bloody long time...
family members can become strangers
if there is god... y didnt he help when pple are in trouble...
wat tribulations.. wat its wat u have to go thru...
then god is playin us like a toy...
FUCK YOU~

mayb its jus me...
atheist=non-believer

i tried to believe...but nothing goes my way
so to hell with it~

god or any higher beings will give me money to eat when i am broke?
will they save me if i am abt to die?
utter rubbish... i dun work n believe...
i will die of starvation first~!